Thursday, February 21, 2013
What am I good at?
I somehow have spent most of my adult life always comparing my self to others. As a young serving one fresh out of the FTTA, all I could do was compare myself. Then I got married to the only man who brings joy EVERY SINGLE DAY of my life. Yup, I found myself comparing myself to other wives. Then we had our first child, and it got ugly. I was never good enough as a mother. This is when I became really insecure. It was a time period in my life that I am so glad that stage is over. . .that chapter is closed! Fragile me has died (hopefully).
So, this brings me to today: 2 kids later, 2 jobs later, 2 houses later, and 4 haircuts later.
I finally feel comfortable in my own skin. I am happy with my body (I have finally accepted the fact that I will never have a flat stomach nor be taller nor have a longer neck or narrow shoulders. I have also learned to love my post baby body---2 cheers for me people!). I am happy with my marriage (for the record, I have always been happy with my marriage), happy with my two kids, happy that I drive a minivan (and not that slick BMW SUV) that's almost paid for, happy who my parents are (even though they aren't PhDs nor power attorneys but your average joes), and happy that I exist. I know my life counts for something.
However, I still don't know what I am good at.
I have had to juggle work and being a mother since I had my first child. It ain't easy. It's not a true story to think you can be a super mom and a super career woman. Sorry to burst your bubble. Juggling too many things at once is a disaster. You have to streamline your life in a big way.
So, I decided that I'm going to find out what I am good at.
I'm streamlining, baby!